GOODBYE PARTY, PART ONE
I spent most of Saturday hanging out with Bethany, since I hadn't seen her much since she got back from the U.S. on Thursday. After that I had lessons in the afternoon, so I hung out at my house, reading and watching my favorite, Pride and Prejudice. Mimi came over and I made her pancakes and she watched with me, because she was having a bad day. One thing I really love is the relationship I get to have with them. I'm not the director, or the pastor, or the mom or dad, not the teacher or tutor. I'm the friend. So when kinds want to talk or when they just want a hug, when they need someone to listen to them or just someplace to hide out for a few hours... I get to be that. I love being that. I wish I could always be that for them.
Saturday night there wasn't Youth Group because every first week of the month everyone gets together for a big church service on Sunday. So instead, after lessons and hangouts with Mimi, I decided to work on music theory for a little while. While I was trying to understand the more complex theoretical stuff someone knocked on my door. I answered and no one was there, strangely, but of course right before I was about to shut the door someone jumped out and yelled "BOO," scaring me to death. It turned out to be good old Ronald, who ended up hanging out with me for a little while. We decided that we might as well just make it a party, so he went to grab some movies and the girls. It was a fantastic night watching movies with Ronald, Julia, Lucy, Jacky, Marcedes, Gabby, and Susy. I love every one of those girls so much! We watched a few movies and shared some peanut butter toast and laughs. These are the kind of memories I will be thankful for when I am missing Casa Angelina. We then thought that maybe this could be "Goodbye Party, Part One" and next Friday we could have "Part Two" which is going to be a lot of fun, I'm sure.
BEGINNING OF ENDINGS
Woke up Sunday and realized that this Sunday was going to be my last one here. That was sad. So I dressed up. At church I sat with Flor on my lap and Jeni and Paoula at my sides. It was so beautiful to have them with me. I think I'm going to miss having soft babies around all the time, always having little fingers wrapped around mine while their clumsy little feet hurry to keep up. I'm going to miss their little wisps of hair and their hugs, their tiny fingers on my face. Sunday marks the first day of lasts. So on this last Sunday, I got to do a skit with Bethany at the beginning of the service, and at the end of it I stood up in front while everyone prayed for me. It was such a beautiful morning and I was so happy for all of it. After church, I went to the Frazers again, to spend time with them. We watched Despicable Me, hung out with the kids, made cupcakes, and just hung out and talked. Which was really lovely. After everyone else went to bed Bethany and I stayed up and she told me about Disneyworld. It is for reasons like that that she is my friend - she's hilarious, and so full of life, and she loves Disneyworld so much that we talked about it for like 45 minutes. I realized that when I leave I'm also going to miss my new friend. Thank God that we live in the technology age where you can just Skype or chat or message or even send emails old-school style.
ELEPHANTS, SPIDERS, AND LOVE
At school today I played with my little elephants. They finished making their projects last week, and since their costumes are done we got to just paly with them and dance around. They are adorable. After that, I went to the 1st and 2nd Grade classes and sang with them about The Itsy Bitsy Spider. It's really rewarding to hear them singing about half of the song in English and actually understand the words instead of just making similar sounds with their mouths. Then we played "Congelado," the game where they freeze when the music freezes. While I was in my last class, Carol, one of the house parents and teacher of the younger 1st and 2nd Graders, came into my class and asked if when I finished there I could come and visit them again. I did about two minutes before class ended and as soon as I entered the classroom I knew that something was up. They all had these sneaky little smiles on their face and as I walked to the front of the classroom Moises came up to meet me. "Kellie, thank you for coming here to Casa Angelina to be with us. We love you and we have made a little gift for you." Then one by one he called up his classmates. As each of them reached me, they hugged me tightly and said something along the lines of "Thank you and I love you." To hear that 10 or 11 times over is beautiful... but that wasn't all! Each one of them also gave me a card in the shape of their favorite animal. After about three of those I was done for, and found myself trying to hold back a mountain of tears, only letting a few escape in front of the little kids. As soon as I left the doors the school though, all bets were off, and I cried. I mean, cried cried. Felt so wonderfully filled up at that moment. It started to rain and I was running through the drops, feeling my own fall down my face, trying to protect the little construction paper cards in my hands. There is no feeling that is as fulfilling or wonderful as that feeling you get when you serve someone. I am so blessed for that. Serving these kids has been so much fun and all I get back from them is love and trust, honor and animal shaped cards that say "I love you" and "You're my hero." I love them. I love them.
SUPRISE!
After finishing our English class with Kung Fu Panda (in English) and a vocab list, I walked out of school on Tuesday and found Bethany and Kerry chatting. After they finished their conversation while I watched Cars 2 with Joaquin, Bethany said "Kellie, you need to let your students know that you can't do a lesson today, and then be ready to leave by 1:30. We're going to Antigua." I was so excited!! Days out are a nice breath of fresh air and I also had a lot of gifts to buy for all of my family and friends coming back!! So I ran back to my house, grabbed my stuff, wrote notes to my students and at 1:45 we were on the road to Antigua. The drive there was so fun, talking to Bethany and Kerry, and once we got there it was madness. There are so many little stores in Antigua. They kept saying "You never know what is behind a door. It was so true. You peeked through one door and it was a cozy cafe, and the next door there was an entire secret garden stretching back and back with fountains and hotels and restaurants and whatever else there may have been. It was so fun. Since Antigua is such a touristy place, there were a lot of Americans, and it was SO strange to see white people walking around! It was also a definitely different feeling being outside of the orphanage - the cat calls and whistles were being tossed toward us every block. You learn to censor it from your awareness. We walked around for a bit, got a famous ice cream from here called POPS and after that had time to hit just one market that took us about an hour and a half to get through! It was crazy!! There were little booths, probably about 45, all inside this building. I got something for all of my closest friends and my family and I am so excited to give them each their gifts. I also got some things for me - a poncho-hoodie and a crazy colored backpack that is so me. Super excited to take that to school in the fall. Before we knew it, it was getting dark and time to go home. So we loaded back up in the car and drove back home. It's amazing how short of a drive 45 minutes feels now, after having to travel such a long way for things. I feel like going to Denver or Pueblo will feel like nothing for me! We're just used to having everything so close. It's such a treat - be thankful for that next time you feel like it's out of the way to go to Walmart a mile away from your house. That is one thing that will be so weird to adjust to when I get back to the States... and probably also flushing toilet paper. How weird.
PIJAMADA
Pijamada... which means pajama party sleep over. We had one of these today for the women's meeting. So after going to school and hanging out with the kiddos, and after my Wednesday guitar lesssons, I hopped into some PJs and passed a little bit of time packing before the meeting. PACKING. It was the weirdest feeling. Fortunately I'm going to be able to leave a lot of big things behind, like hair products, soap and my rainboots that ripped in half (after 3 years of good use, might I add). That means I'll have a lot more room to pack things including all of the new gifts that I'm bringing home. Around 4:15 I went to help Bethany with whatever she might need for the Women's PJ Party. We had popcorn, cake, ice cream, soda, tea, and lots of movies to choose from. The best part was that Bethany had set up their living room with a giant projector screen and couches all around, making it the most comfortable in-home movie theatre in Guatemala. It was fun to see everyone so silly and comfy in their pajamas. Made me remember how much I have loved to get to know every single one of these women. There's Julietta, who is sarcastic and hilarious, Carol, who is like a mom (scratching your back and playing with your hair, at all the right moments.) There's Magda who is like the camp counselor that everyone loves by the end of the week, and so many more of the girls here that I've loved to get to know. What an adventure to be here and meet all of these people who have changed my life. Anyway, we started out the movie night with Water for Elephants, which probably would have been more fun to watch for me if it had been in English. Oh well! We were just going to watch one but the ladies insisted on a second movie, so we watched Beastly, which I love. It's a modern-day version of Beauty and the Beast, super interesting, and really lovely. Just simple and real. After that we WERE just going to watch those two, but the ladies insisted on a third movie, so after checking up at their houses, they all came back to watch In Time. That movie is super fun too. It's an interesting concept where everything in life is paid for with time. They spend time to get coffee, time to ride the bus, time to pay the bills, but what's interesting is that when they use all of their time they die. Anyway it's an action film and is pretty good, even though the script isn't amazing (haha). It was almost 11:30 when Bethany and I had finished cleaning up and I went home. I couldn't sleep so I took a shower and packed some more, then read the Bible a bit. It's so strange that this is it... this is it. The last everything here in Guatemala.TODAY
Today I woke up and made French toast with feta cheese and bananas. It was really, really delicious. After that I got ready, went to school and hung out with the High School and 5th-6th graders. I didn't even teach them anything. Just hung out and took pictures. I don't want to spend my last few days asking them to pay attention. Instead, I just want to pay attention to them. We laughed and had fun, and after that I went to the Frazers. I don't know where Bethany was but I had the best time hanging out with Ariana, India, and Ethan. We played doll house, played with perfume, and then made a video that we have been talking about making since Week Two of my being here called "I Ate Some Chicken." It's HILARIOUS. I'm definitely posting that when I put it all together and fix it up. They're really fun amazing kids. They make me laugh a TON and they do the cutest and most random things. They are also WILD - they have so much energy and it's AMAZING! I love spending time with them. Totally different spending time with Spanish-speaking kids and English-speaking ones, because when an American kid says "pataloughla" I know that they're just making up a word and being crazy, instead of trying to translate it. It's been so neat to experience both of those, loving the culture of the Guatemalans and also learning more about my own culture through the Frazer kiddos. After that I had lunch, then lessons, and had my last lesson with Carmencita. She's gotten SO good. I don't think it's only because of my amazing teaching skills, either. I think she just has the piano built into her like I do with singing. She's just naturally really good at it. She already knows all of her natural scales (no flats, minors, or anything unusual scales yet) and can do them perfectly. She's memorized the order of the sharps and understands the Circle of Fifths and how to use it, she knows what keys have what flats, and can change between them!! It's amazing to see her come so far and I feel really grateful to have had a student like her because it makes me feel wonderful to see her so excited and proud of herself, and also proves to me that I'm not actually a terrible teacher. It's been amazing for both of us. I gave her a piano book that I had been working a bit on translating for her. That way she can kind of continue teaching herself. She's amazing. After that I cleaned the apartment and kept asking specific girls to come over so that I could give them things. I gave Jacky the shirt that she always borrowed from me. I think it cost me like $4 and I never loved it like she did. She cried when I gave it to her and said "I really love you, Kellie." Then I cried, and was amazed. I gave away a couple other things too, and it was amazing. I felt so free and loved, giving something to someone that needed it and getting love back in return. How amazing. Then I ended the night with writing letters and doing, well, this. I'm about to stop by one of the houses to make a visit and I can't wait to see those kiddos.Tomorrow is Friday and therefore my very last official day at Casa Angelina. We're going to have Going Away Party, Part Two tomorrow night, and I've asked some of the girls to spend the night with me after that. Saturday morning they're going to help me do the last minute things and spend time with me, making breakfast and saying goodbyes. I'm not ready to leave.
On the other hand, I'm so ready to be home. I missed my family, and after taking a step back from them realize how much I need them, how much I love them, how much they do for me every single day. How much they've been there for me through everything. And for those same reasons I missed my friends. I can't wait to be back in the arms of people that I love and have been waiting to see for three months. Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, for supporting me this entire time, giving me love and means to come and do this amazing thing for myself. I've grown up so much and become so much more of the person that I want to be, and I know that none of that would be possible without the love and support of every single one of you. Exactly 48 hours from this very moment I will be in Colorado Springs, celebrating with those closest to my heart, happy to be home, and missing Casa Angelina. My heart is so full, and I feel so blessed. From the bottom of my heart, I. LOVE. YOU.
Love, Kellie
If you could please be praying for my flights and that everything goes smoothly, that would be amazing! I leave Casa Angelina at 9:30, and then my flight leaves Guatemala at 12:10. I should land in Houston around 4:15. After that I have a really long layover at the Houston Airport - my flight should leave there at 7:00, a little after. Then I will have my feet planted on the Colorado Springs Ground at 8:15 (time change) after a two and half hour flight and a very long day. Pray for strength, awareness, and safety, and that I would get everywhere I need to be on time! Love, love, love you.